Remembering the Future

The most painful state of being is remembering the future, particularly the one you'll never have. Soren Kierkegaard

This quote struck me as the epitome of what daily caregiving is like.  As we spend the days with our loved ones, we are pained by all that probably will not be. The remembering of the future. The landmarks we will not be able to celebrate, the shoulder we once cried on, the advice we once were given.

Our future is clouded by a diagnosis, limited by our roles as caregivers.   Our days are full of extras that keep us from things we once could do.  Sometimes we are torn between memories of good times in the past and fears of an eventual future or regret of a future not to be.

Our journey requires presence and courage.  We cannot dwell in the remembering of the future, but benefit most from present moment awareness. 

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.  Matthew 6:34.